Sept. 4, 1999: Marlin posted his summer end review (which includes, “Flannelman, you confuse me sometimes, but you stick to your guns without opening fire, and I have to respect that.”) Thanks, I think, LOL. Alot of people seem to think I confuse them, maybe that’s true. I’ve been in a e-mail rant and rave match with Korpios, he feels that I “place myself on a higher moral plane” and tend to be “an arrogant asshole”. Strong words by someone who always claims to be better then everyone else and have liberal views (translation: do whatever they want because they are free to rule their own little world without regard for others). Maybe I “will defend Melissa no matter what she says or does…”, but that is what love is about. Sticking with your guns because you love someone, no matter what. The bottom line is I do love Melissa; hell I love her so much I married her 🙂 So you won’t get an arguement out of me. Rock probably says it best when he wrote, “Chris has gone off and chosen a life, to live with Melissa, he made her his wife. Together they live and together they are, and they love each other with all of their hearts.” I couldn’t have put it more aptly. Like an indivisable system, bound souls, or an indestructable atomic bond I stand with my wife. There is nothing wrong with that. If more people stuck with what they believe Immortalis would have a web page. Maybe, I jump to conclusions sometimes. Damn straight, when most people are stabbing each other in the back I do it to your face (another great fact that I thank Marlin for pointing out… I’d rather know about someone attempting to destroy me then trying to hide it like a coward). If there is one thing my Grandmother taught me it was never hide your feelings. She taught me something else too– if you love someone you will always stick up for them. Belittle my wife therefore and you will get belittled. I have never been short on words, nor do I lose my temper. By now even the lamest people around know that every move I make is calculated and that I don’t lose (two certain females out there learned that in about one day). Life for me isn’t boring, it never has been. I’ve always had someone chewing into me, but that’s what people do when they are jealous. “For all of you that have read this far, thanks… It must seem like a soap, but hey, it’s me,” Red Raven said once in a good past rant. I would tend to argee. This is real life, the life I’m living. SO whether it’s some some faggot making comments about Melissa or a or some lame punk band that I’m currently knocking I’m going to tell you how it is. Melissa’s Father puts it best when he told me to do one thing, “Keep it real” (which is really funny to hear coming from a full grown man:) And that is what I do, I keep it real. That’s what DF is all about. I try to get along with everyone and in essence I do. But don’t fuck with the crew because that’s when I tell you how it is. 9 out of 10 times that’s when people get pissed, when I respond. So if you don’t like to hear what I got to say just remember, I didn’t type the url in the address bar. There are plenty of lame bands out there. There is plenty of websites dedicated to cheese. No one made you read it, but let’s face it you want to know who’s next on the flAnnel-hitlist LOL. Sometimes just when you think I’m done bitching about someone or you think I gave up… I bring it back to you all. So in the end I am an arrogant asshole. I will always stand behind Melissa no matter what. I confuse the fuck out of eveyrone. I, however, don’t lie, cheat, or steal. I never hide my true intentions. Yeah, I also place myself on a higher moral plane. That’s what I do, I try to be the best me there is because no one else can be me. I’m proud of me and so are the people who love me. Infact, it is my belief that the entire point of life is to be the best you possible and do the best with what you have. That’s the point of life. If you don’t live up to your true potential, tough, that’s your choice. I’ve already made mine… Mermaid responded once to something I said and put it out there to everyone, “(flAnnelmAn) is right,… for the most part. No one is right, no one is wrong.. however, there are exceptions to every rule. Some of the acts that have gone on in recent days in this war are inexcuseable, the `no right, no wrong’ theroy just won’t apply to them.” Right now, I believe, there is no right or wrong and that rule can now be applied. That situation is long gone. I am over all that. I’ve forgiven everyone, inlcuding myself. Melissa has too. Maybe it’s time for others to do the same. Maybe, just maybe, I’m not the only arrogant one with a webpage. Keep it real.
