November 24, 2003: [•] Musing on something: Personal decisions. They are the hardest to make because they are the ones closest to our hearts. Things of life and love, those are the things that not only draw us on, but also pull us apart from the inside. Hate and fear are the things that stop us from ever making a change in the first place, but they are right there with wisdom. Wisdom is the counterbalance of intelligence, which is what we know as reality. Reality is fading into memories and sometimes with self-denial becomes the disillusioned wisdom we hold dear. Courage is the ability to look within yourself and to do the right thing no matter how much you fear doing it. The right thing is sometimes wrong in the eyes of others because their experience holds that isn’t what one should do in your given reality. Thus you are wrong and they are right because majority always rules when it comes to developing a society even if in your eyes it is they who are wrong. Our society develops out of love, fear, wisdom, intelligence, and courage; but is often wrought with self-denial. We hold our history as our redeeming truth of its worth, but that too can become distorted by our own self-righteous opinions. It takes a rebel to make a change thus. Someone who thinks outside the society yet holds its core truths close to their own heart. One who is willing to rise above the accepted truth and take challenge to what others think. One who is willing to risk it all to obtain truth and only truth. One who is willing to love purely despite all the fear, truth, and opinions of others. Do any of us has what it takes to be that one person?