Classic DF – 1/20/04

January 20, 2004: [•] This one goes out to my home skillet Broken Reality who asked me today when I’m going to update– damn it, read my page because I am (lol). [•] I don’t know if anyone else has been keeping up on the Mozilla project, but let me tell you that Firebird and Thunderbird are respectively the best browser and email client I have seen in a long time. If you recall I was a die hard Microsoft convert over these past few years after numerous shitty builds from the Netscape camp. With AOL out of the mix the open source community really is kicking it into high gear though. The new Netscape-based Gecko engine is awesome. Sure it crashes sometimes (well… only on certain pages), but the over all capabilities of are mind blowing. I’ve done a couple of simple tweaks and my web page load times are by far improved. I also love the tabbed interface. The junk mail controls in Thunderbird are insanely good. I no longer wretch at the thought of checking my email due to the amount of crap flowing into my inbox. I’ve even started using them on my three PC’s at work. The Celeron box running Windows XP Home seems to lag, but that’s because of the caching issues with that particular CPU (it’s a 1.3 GHz Celeron), but the other three do fine. Also I’m running it on my new PC (it flies on that sucker) and my old PC at home. Even with the 266 MHz CPU it seems to do alright. I haven’t been this excited about software in years and it almost feels like 1996 all over again. [•] New music is on the way. Things have been weird though in my personal life. I’m dealing with a lot issues that I’ve been ignoring. Specifically certain feelings that I have been otherwise hiding to the general populace. I guess it’s time I confessed up and said whatever you heard is probably true, but it’s okay because despite what you think all you people who have been important to me in the past (and you all know who you are) still are. Sometimes I know you guys feel left out and even miss me. Life has been one hectic insane twist after another, but even if I’m just dropping you an IM it’s because I’m thinking about you. I wish there were more hours in a day because if you’ve ever checked my Friendster roster you know how many people I have come to know and been lucky enough to becomes friends with. This truly is a new year for us all and there are many changes on the horizon. I can feel it in the air and I’m not just being poetic here. I see us all growing up finally and becoming adults. Each day we change, but I know it is all for the better. There is something heart warming about knowing better things are on the horizon even if the immediate requires some sacrifice or turmoil to be overcome. We will overcome my friends; patience.

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Classic DF – 1/19/04

January 19, 2004: [•] Yesterday I almost made the biggest mistake of my life and lost my best friend forever. Mental note: Unless one wishes to make misery ensue in their life until the day one dies don’t let that happen again.

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Classic DF – 1/16/04

January 16, 2004: [•] I’m going to say what I’ve wanted to say for over a year. Right now I’m invulnerable in my head:

So far away from here
the piece of mind I yearn for.
So blown away from fear
the world I run from.
And you I know I crave
like the drug I affix to the beat of the drum.
Here away from hate
where one cannot run.

It’s so blown away
like nitrogen suffocating.
I’m so torn by fame
and the world I’m hating.

So fix yourself on dapper putrid fame
like Nicki could run from.
But hate is full of pain
defecate the one son.
Hate the final plea
guilty like you and me.
Fixation on oxygen high
like global warming in the sky.
Martyr this is but one pledge.
Death is but the offer I rebate too.
And here comes that embrace
the one I fear to ask you for.

It’s so blown away
I’m so torn by fame
and the world I’m hating…
suffocating in nitrogen to oxygen
so here to die.

One world away from you.
What you sent and said.
Offering global announcement policy
on freedom offers.
Like flight 128 I grow weary
from the sad deliverance within/
So choke in from here
and await my new salvation.

Suffocating
suffocating
suffocating
awaiting the last breath|
when nitrogen become the oxygen

Suffocating in her for you to me
blown away by the fear
invincible in the offer.

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Classic DF – 12/11/03

December 11, 2003: [•] I can tell you four things right now: 1.) I’m re-launching this site. 2.) It’s going to be special. Like short bus special. 3.) New music will follow shortly, but that’s something else. 4.) I can count no higher than the number 4. With that, I end this post… BAM!

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