October 11, 2003: [•] My life has reached an evolutional plateau. I am quite happy by this. Now that change has stagnated I can focus on who I am and what I believe. I can follow my set course of action and stick to my ideals. Things are excellent. For the first time in a long time I am not only happy, but content too. Yes content and happy. My life is back in full effect. I have decided after the result of this year’s impromptu DigitalFl00d party that I want to become straight edge again. Not because I had a bad drinking experience. No, it’s not because I think things are out of control. It’s just I’m tired of alcohol. Thus I think my overall mid-life crisis with alcohol passes without much ado about anything. I’ve grown bored with certain things. Things I don’t need. So like dead leaves those things fall off. Two things consume me. Primarily being a father. I have become even more hard pressed to continue to be dedicated 150% to my daughter at all times. Secondary, to work hard to continue to prosper to insure her successful future. I have begun to fine tune the songs I’ve been working on. The rap thing seems to be slipping away, but whatever it is that I am creating is all that much better. I will not seek to define it other than mind blowing.