September 18, 2003: [•] Today was a day of both good and bad for me. A little bit from column A. A little bit from column B. Overall it could have been worse or it could have been better, but what was simply… ummm… was. That’s okay in and of itself. I don’t want to talk about me today though. Instead I want to talk about someone else. For the first time in a long time I saw one of my friends truly happy. I saw something in his smile that I hadn’t seen from him in what would seem ages. To you my friend I send you the best wishes that those moments will continue. Seeing others happy tends to remind me of the things I want in life. I won’t lie. I do want that kind of happiness that comes from finding someone you can share love with. Even so, doing what I am doing now isn’t bad in any sense of the word. My life is coming together slowly, but surely. When I do have that special someone in my life I want to be ready for them. I want my life to be together enough that I can focus on their presence instead of all the issues I have to focus on now. Then again, when you are with someone you love that much even those little things don’t matter so maybe I’m just putting too much thought behind my actions again. Damn this thing called rational. Damn it straight to Hell. 😉 My biggest regret, once again, seems to simply be the things I cannot bring myself to say or do. Point number two I have to work on. Note to self: Figure this all out after you’ve had some sleep to clear the cobwebs. Point taken, I’m out..